THIS Is It

WHEN I WAS VERY YOUNG I KNEW I  LIKE THE SAME SEX.. BUT I NEVER THOUGHT ANY THING ABOUT,  IT EXCEPT I WANTED TO TOUCH MY FRIEND.. MY MOM CAUGHT ME TOUCHING MY FRIEND.. AND WOULD SOMETIMES USE THAT TO EMBARRASSED ME.. BOY DID IT, BUT I FORGIVE HER.. I GREW UP AND DID WHAT I WAS RAISED TO BELIEVE  WAS RIGHT. GOT MARRIED HAD TWO BEAUTIFUL SMART CHILDREN. I TOLD HIM WHEN I MET HIM I HAD CONFUSION IN MY MIND. I WAS ATTRACTED TO THE SAME SEX AND HAD BEEN ALL MY LIFE. HE TOLD ME THAT WAS NORMAL, THAT EVERY BODY GOING THROUGH ADOLESCENT WENT THROUGH THAT FEELING ADJUSTING TO WHO YOU ARE.. I THAT WASN'T TRUE.. SO WE WERE MARRIED FOR ALMOST 7 YEARS.. I COULDN'T STAND IT ANY LONGER I WAS WHO I WAS.. I JUST KEPT THINKING, TO MY SELF.. I HAD TO GET AWAY FROM THAT LIFE.. SO I LEFT WITH MY CHILDREN.. AND NEVER LOOKED BACK... I AM GAY.. THATS JUST THE WAY IT WAS.. SO MY X WENT TO ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIEND, I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A CHANCE TO TELL ANYBODY.. HE BEAT ME TO IT.. IT WAS HARD ADJUSTING TO ALL THE QUESTIONS AND NEGATIVE COMMENTS, FROM PEOPLE THAT WERE MY FRIENDS.. BUT I DIDN'T LET IT GET ME DOWN.. I JUST KEPT PURSUING THAT FIRE INSIDE OF ME, AND ON MY 23 BIRTHDAY I FINALLY HAD A CONNECTION.. I'LL TELL YOU COMING OUT SUCKS.. UNTIL I GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING.. WELL JUST NOT A GOOD EXPERIENCE... AT FIRST...  BUT AFTER I WORKED THROUGH A LOT LOTTA CRAP AND FOUND MY SELF WHERE I NEEDED TO BE WITH OTHER GAY PEOPLE.. NOT BI.. I TRY MY BEST TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM, BECAUSE IT  WILL BREAK YOUR HEART.. PLUS I'M WORTH HAVING MY OWE [ ONE PERSON] TO LOVE ME.. NOT A COUPLE, YUCK.. IT MAKES ME SICK WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT..SO MANY PEOPLE THINK GAY PEOPLE WILL SLEEP WITH ANY THING READY.. HOW DISRESPECTFUL OF THOSE PEOPLE, AND SHALLOW.. I  AM NOW 39 AND VERY HAPPY BEING GAY..AND MY CHILDREN ARE GROW, AND WE LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH.. AND WELL FOR THE  X HE DIED SMOKING CRACK!!!!!!! WHAT A WASTE.. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I'M A JESUS FREAK.. I KNOW GOD LOVES ME.. NO MATTER WHAT RELIGIOUS PEOPLE SAY.. ITS ABOUT THE RELATIONSHIP YOUR HAVE WITH JESUS.. NOT ABOUT RELIGION.. ITS GODS PLACE TO JUDGE'' NOT RELIGIONS..                      THANKS FOR LETTING ME RELEASE