Wish I Could Tell Everyone This

I'm gay, now you know. What's wrong with that? I wish everyone had to go through this, so that way they would understand how it feels. Don't make it sound like this is a concious decision I make everday because it isn't and never has been. Do you think about it when you have get a crush? No, it just happens. For religion, I don't want to hear it. If you want to believe in a horrible god who sentences everyone who is different to hell, fine. Just don't drag me along with it.

Don't say that I should just go be 100% open about it. "Tell them you never. They might suprise you." Do you think its that easy? What about the very real possibility that you are wrong and they do not accept you? Have you ever been afraid of being ridiculed because of your sexuality? Afraid of losing people you care about because of it? Have you gone through falling for a friend who isn't gay? Knowing they are forever out of your reach, yet always clinging to that desperate hope that just mabye they're gay too? Have you ever cried yourself to sleep just wishing you were normal? Asking why did you had to be different? Why you had to be the one to deal with this when there are so many people who don't have to? Sorry but you just don't get some things unless you experience them.

So before you judge me and ridicule me for being something that I have no control over. Take a deep breath and leave because I don't care. I'm me and that's all I ever will be. I wish that the world didn't have a problem with it. I really wish it didn't.

Sorry for my ranting but it feels nice to rant every now and then.

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2 Responses Nov 30, 2012

-claps- well said.