I Am Gay And Alone.I am 16 years old and I am gay. I still study in the high school. The person of my age might complaint for being bullied, but not me. I am strong and stout guy. I will never let anyone offend me, but if someone do, my whist will kiss his face. I am not very talkative, mostly i express my mind in writing. Now I've found exciting way to express and share my thoughts.
The society I live in is very strict, 'cuz i live in middle east. The idea of being gay is absolutely unacceptable here. To be honest i don't really think that there is any other gay here. I can't tell any one about my sexuality.'cuz ...... it is Asia. and Islam funs will just kill me. But the it is not a problem for me, despite the fact i am gay, I'm not feminine I'm manly and muscular in comparison with my contemporaries. And the hiding my face is very easy for me. I am anyone, but not myself.
I am playing a role of perfect person, cuz' my parent expect it from me. I don't drink don't smoke, i am quite good at studying, i regularly work out. BUT i am alone. I DON'T HAVE A FRIEND. I don't hang out with my male mates, i don't find it interesting. And certainly not with girls. I pretend to be OK and smile, just to create the sign of happiness. BUT i am always depressed. and only studying and sport help me to keep afloat.
I just need somebody to love and be loved by. I just need someone to talk and support.
thegaymask 22-25, M 17 Responses 3 Dec 23, 2012