Save Me From My Self

There are so many things to say. I wish I knew how to say them. I am also from the USA and I do not know you but you should not be ashamed to be gay. I know this feeling after talking to someone and feeling so sad. I do not know much about your country but maybe you could find more friends where you live. Do you have plans to move to the USA to be with him? Suicide should never be an answer. You don't know me and I don't know you. I just joined this kind of from mistake but I feel sad to hear your story. I am happy you wrote it though but also sad about suicide because you never know what can happen in the future. You may find someone close or you may move etc.
I don't know the time difference but if you feel like talking say hi. I am 33 by the way. I have a photo on Facebk my name is davin Atencio :)

I know it's hard when your as young as you are and realizing your gay. I was the same way but eventually I came to the conclusion that there's nothing wrong about being gay--after all, I didn't chose to be gay, it's just the way I turned out so why not accept myself since there's nothing I can do about it. So first, your should come to terms with your sexulaity. Second, falling in love for the first time can be hard too, especially if your gay. But don't despair. Perhaps you'll find a way to make this first love of yours work. If not, you're bound to find someone else. Life can be a terrible drag sometimes but it can also be beautiful, so please don't give up so easily. Hang in there!

please come to terms wirh ur sexuality! Dont give up on life so often the first time with a guy can lead to a fixation on him. but true love will come xx

Does he feel the same way about you? would he go as far as you would for what you two share?

I've been in the position before where you love someone so much that it hurts to do anything else in your life. But don't give up, if what you two have is special then there will be a way for it to work out.