Final Decision

In high school i finally decided that I as gay. I was definite this year. I have only told several friends that i can trust because people are so oppressive. I really don't care what people say anymore Then comes my family. They can't know. I come from a strict Southern Batist family. That makes things so stressful. I am in want of a relationship now. I need that support from somebody who understands me on a number of levels including a level that noody in my family would understand. I do not know where to start.

MoonRain MoonRain
18-21, M
8 Responses Mar 9, 2009

Wow, So sad. Being gay is the best thing I could imagine and I have been so happy for so many years and enjoyed so very many people intimately after freeing myself from all the hetero hate and all the hetero mythology of only one person to love and horrendous hetero god stories and all their formulaic hetero romantic **** --which is really based on and totally to sugarcoat and to support two economic social concerns: paternity and property rights. Those are actually the basis for all of marriage and for most of the religious strictures and taboos that have been developed over thousands of years to support them. The male human wants to have lots of and naturally enjoys sex, lots of sex with lots of partners and really doesn't need too much of all the other garbage unless he's been brainwashed and made to feel inferior or bad or criminal or dirty or evil or whatever the haters and ignorant try to call us. All BS! Sex is great, ***** are fantastic and delicious and the more you do it without strings attached and the more guys you enjoy the greater life is! Don't use sex to try to control others or to "marry" them or to make them do what you want --No guilt trips or power plays!! Just enjoy sex for the hot, sensuous and great release and experience it is --especially with other men and their incredible *****! I have so many great and special friends and we are so sexy and intimate, sometimes several times in a single day and sometimes in groups of us all naked and sexing with each other, everybody trying to achieve ******* and give ******* to others. I love to enjoy several ***** all at once like bukkake (google it!) Wow, being in close, physical contact with men's bodies, serving and servicing each other, and being inside their bodies and having them inside me and sharing our really magical essence and juice is the most thrilling and hot and exciting and pleasurable times I have ever had, ever experienced and ever imagined. It is actually so fantastic that society, the church, women, all the "ruling" forces are afraid of just how consuming and thrilling it is! Way beyond anything they can offer to make you do what they want and better than any food, money, entertainment, anything! Give me a man and his **** and his juice or several and I am totally fulfilled (in the real way) and totally happy! And once you've been so intimate and had so much sex with guys you have a real special, incredible bond and can do all kinds of things together in the times between having sex if there is any! LOL

Religion causes do many problems for people, society and life.

God has made me stronger through this. I just left my Southern Baptist church and am attending an Episcopal church. VERY gay friendly. Our preist is gay and his partner is a preist as well.

I hope so. I am hopeful.

highschool is tough, but i hear college students r more openminded

It's great to have support. I don't have it anywhere else...except for one friend.

I just recently realized I'm bi. I'm a bit startled by it. But I'm way happier now that I came to this conclusion. Highschools tough, I intend to keep this from my family. I think I'll gradually tell my friends. Not sure what to do about the more homophobic ones though.

welcome!<br />
i dont know where 2 tell u 2 start, only u can figure that out cuz u know ur situation better than any1 else, but good luck and best wishes 2 u and have a great week.