My Mean Straight Bestfreind

s uppp Name not important I'm 16 years old. I'm in high school :) -& I love my life. Anyways my story is about my straight befriend whom I'm deeply in love with me -& him been through alto together and I love him -& he love me or that's what he Tell's me on random occasion's when I'm not excepting it. He is so sexy -& tall ( just like me around 6'4) Spanish -& funny. I can't live without him. I told him how I felt about him over a year ago -& he accepted me. Lately I've been feeling like killing myself because of the way he treat me LIKE CRAP!! Me -& him get into fights but we always end up being Friends. Now it's like getting to a point were I just can't stand it anymore. He is the only guy in school with a gay befriend. I think he's ashamed of me though because when he'll walk with me in the hallway he'll see his better -& straight Friend's -& leave me for them. He Say's that it's because they will be mean you. He'll just leave me in the hallway all by myself. He makes fun of the way I speak + were around other people he will never admit were befriends and that really hurts. He told me I'm the only guy he's ever said I love you to -& I  also tell him if he doesn't want to be Friend that's fine with me. My Friends say he likes me but I'm really confused. When he treat's me like this I feel like just ending my life it's getting ridiculous. Everyday it's the same thing. He'll gass my head  up asking me for sexual favor's -& saying gotcha! Gassing me up thinking it's mad funny he'll sit there -& talk about my Friends -& he know it bothers me he doesn't care. There's alot more to this story but it's just bringing tears to my eye's thinking about it. idek should I be Friends with someone who doesn't even know how to treat me? If he doesn't want me a his freind that's all he has to say -& I'm gone. :-(