Finally, I Feel Just A Little Less Alone

My whole life, I have had a fear of sex. For a long time, I never thought it  was a "phobia," just immensely disliked the idea and felt uncomfortable every time I had to confront it. But as I get older, you can imagine just how often I have to. It has finally gotten to the point where, coupled with my typical anxiety and depression problems, I have begun pushing away socializing events and parties because I know I will have to deal with it there. Obviously, it has also taken a toll on romantic relationships.
Over time, it really affected my self-esteem but I still had no idea what was ailing me. I don't want to be a burden to other people, I just want to be happy and comfortable in my life. I try my best to put my life in perspective: I know that I am not the only one out there with problems; I often feel silly that I have anything to "complain" about. But over time this fear of sex has begun to eat at me and prevent me from really living. Once I pinpointed my problem, I began to look for a way to treat it.
It is impossible to explain how much hope it has given me to find a group  where I can discuss this with others like me.
tealdrops tealdrops
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 9, 2010

I feel the same way....<br />
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We've been trying different methods (psychology, psychiatry, random other stuff....) and it just feels like the anger, hurt, and phobia reactions are just suppressed in the back of my mind.<br />
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Hope things work out better for you. <3