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im abused daily by my step father. i cant and wont go the cops and i dont want anyone else to either. but im hoping one day ill die. maybe he'll kill me. my life of horror will be over. i dont need this pain.
brokenhearted1999 brokenhearted1999 13-15, F 18 Responses Apr 22, 2012

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well I haven't been on for a while but I'm ok now. I've moved in with my older brother and my stepdad is now in jail. thanks for all of your support. ^_^

well, you need to do something...you cant just take it.. its not right. if cops cant be called you need to go to someone who you can trust so you can work out a plan to get you out of where you are if its harmful. if he's hitting you its not only physical abuse, it's also causing emotional harm to you.

you might get more results if you run away to children's home and refuse to tell them anything about yourself ;)

My father used to beat the hell out of me and I have never forgiven him for it. I still have lots of self esteam and self worth issues to work through. All I can say is that if you can't or wont sand up for yourself, who will? Letting someone hurt you isn't cool. Be it physical, sexual, emotional or spiritual, abuse can be stopped but you have to be willing to take the first step. I am sure that you are a good person and I am also sure it can be hard to see that worth with someone close to you treating you unjustly. If you do what you have always done, you will get what you have always gotten. I was sexually abused by my mother's boyfriend when I was a kid and I didn't tell anyone about it for years. It came out in others ways though. As a kid I was always getting into trouble and it wasn't because I was a bad person or kid, it was becasue I was abused and didn't know how to tell someone. This step dad of yours sounds like he should be locked up behind bars for a very long time. Best of luck to you, and I hope you seek out the help you need. Just posting this on here has to feel somewhat better, getting it off your chest. As a last thought, I leave you with this: If you don't stop your step father from doing harm to you, what is to stop him from doing it to someone else? God bless you and I will pray for you, because even if you don't see it, your worth it
TK

My girlfriend went through this until just after we got together, I put him in his place, jail, he has since gotten out, and gone back to see her, but he won't do anything, he knows next time, it won't be cops being semi-respectful to him, because I could take him and he knows it. But don't just take it hun, you can't let him keep doing it, you just have to take a stand, and I know it can be hard, but you have to

UGH!,I JUST HATE IT WHEN MEN HIT ON FEMALES! THEY ARE NOTHING BUT LITTLE B*****,HOW WOULD HE LIKE TO HIT ON A 6'0,235 POUND, BLACK AND HAWWAIIN (MAN) I PROMISE YOU HE WILL NEVER EVEN THINK TO HIT A FEMALE AGIAN!( AND FOR YOU KEEP YOUR HEAD UP,AND STAY STRONG) AND SENSE THERES NO MAN TO PROTECT YOU AROUND,(CALL 911) THE (COPS)

haha thanks :) but I moved in with my older brother. I would've told everyone sooner but I just recently got a new laptop. but im updating my blog more now (just realized there was a blog on here lol) but thanks. im open to talking to people tho. im lonely here since im really shy around people in person. but thanks ^_^

you should go to the police. Although in domestic cases it is difficult. I remember one time when I was about 15, I was on the phone with my friend, when my dad in a drunken stupor crashed down my door and started choking me. My friend called the police and he was taken to jail. But then he came back and it started all over again. Perhaps there is an outreach program at school or even the department of children and family services. You don't deserve to die. He does.

why wont you go to the cops?

This is such a terrible thing to hear. Even if you don't want to go to the cops directly you should consider doing it indirectly by talking to a counselor of some kind. Like a guidance counselor from your school? It's terrible what he's doing to you and I hope you find the strength to give him back what he deserves. People should know what he is and what he does. You deserve a better life than what he's giving you. Please find the strength to change this situation. What if he's capable of hurting other people? Nobody should ever feel like their life is worth nothing just because someone else decides to make them miserable. You're your own person.

I am angry and devastated when I hear things like this. There is absolutely NO excuse! It is very frightening to get help, especially living in fear. But he cannot get away with what he is doing. I hope you don't mind me saying, but I will pray that my God will deliver you from his evil hands and that wrath be upon him and you can and will be loved for the truly beautiful person that you are inside and out.

i wish i can do something to reduce ur pain but i know its not that simple. but u need to keep ur head up, b brave n go to the nearest police office. d u live in germany or US?

google a child helpline for your town,you need help ,you say you will not report this,but you have a right not to live in fear,do you fear not having a place to stay,or if you report him no one will believe you,those helpline number will believe you,and give you a safe place to stay,they are just a phone call away,just google them.

Please,please be brave & get some help. You owe it to yourself!Hug.

I left my home when step father put acid and bobwire around my neck don't think that way it will turn you to a place you proble don't wut to go.

I left my home when step father put acid and bobwire around my neck don't think that way it will turn you to a place you proble don't wut to go.

I left my home when step father put acid and bobwire around my neck don't think that way it will turn you to a place you proble don't wut to go.

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(((Hugs)))

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