Going To Ask For A Divorce Tonight, Again!!I've been here posting I'm getting a divorce. I waited through the holidays and see if things will changed to be better. The year started out ok. She came home to celerbrate new year eve with me and our son. We had sex for the next four nights in a row. Though the new year will change her heart. Guess I was fooled. It maybe guilty heart and not change of heart. She can't quit her affair. It feel like it's getting stronger and not weaker. She is out everynight with him having dinner and come back afterward. I can go on, bottomline, I can't handle the pains and suffering anymore. It must stop!! and it will be tonight. I need to tell her it's either him or me. I know she will pick him. I just wanted her to say it so I can once and for all bury my heart. I have a plan set up but it's useless. Still a long way to go to implement it. I just can't handle the pains anymore!! It's too painful to see her walk out of me everynight to be with him!!
Gosh I sounded so pathetic... I'm a man! Suppose to man up and be able to take any pain. Instead, I sound like a kid wanting / missing his mommy.. I'm too reliant to my wife!! I need to cut the cord!!
At EP, I stress to work thing out to the best of your abilities before calling it quit. I haven't done my best yet. Here I am quitting.. I'm such a hippacrate. I can't practice what I preach. I'm so f**ked. I've got to stop my miseries!!! I have got to stop my pains!!! Will the other side be peacful? LOL!!! I'm not dying here. WHy do I feel it's the end of the world? It's part of life, right? It's only cost me 25 years out of my 47 years of life. I still have plenty of year left, right? There must be a better life ahead of me!! I deserved better!!
ptat 46-50, M 6 Responses 1 Jan 11, 2012