I Thought I Was Getting A Divorce Until,Here I go again!! Back to square 1. I asked for a divorce several months ago. Got all the paperworks ready. Going to file it after the tax season is over, in 16 days. Within these couple of month, my demeanors changed. I've gotten positive about where my life is going. Confidences are there. Work ethic are there. My self esteem are rebuilding.
Everything is going great until she started to waltz back into my life. Our marriage warmed up. Her affair is still ongoing yet it's on a downward trend. It feel like there is still a chance. She no longer discount me out of her life. At the same time she is not taking me back. She is just re-evaluating. Yet , Intimacy, sex are there. There are moment where love is being discussed.
My mind set is now weakened. Am I being an idiot thinking I may have a chance? Am I rushing into situations foolishly? I have a plan and I needed to stick to it, right? Am I being played? Her affair is not over yet. She wanting it to be over. He would't let her go and he is just too much fun to be with. Last night they stayed out all night!!! I know that action is already a deal breaker. Why do I wanted to over look it and wanting to make the marriage work?
I wanted a divorce from this woman I am deeply inloved with. It doesn't make sense at all!!! Is this a sign of weakness? stupidity? I'm willing to leave. Why am I staying?
ptat 46-50, M 7 Responses 1 Apr 1, 2012