Another HurdleToday was a big day in my divorce. My soon to be ex came by today to get the rest of her stuff. She hasn't lived with me for over a year, but it still felt horrible. I had packed all of her stuff up and put it in the garage so I wouldn't have to see her. I was holding it together pretty well until after she left and I saw her key sitting on a counter where she left it. That was when I just lost it. It felt like someone was stepping on my chest. I spent the rest of the day in a daze and cried a lot.
I know she thinks I am the bad guy and that I am happy to have her gone. She has said as much to me in the past. I know she is having just as bad of a day as I am. Some people tell me I need to get angry, since she left me, but I just can't. I'm not that kind of person. Others tell me I will be over it some day, but again, how do you get over this?
I really feel like my life has no meaning. I know that it does in some way. I good job and teach on the side, but it all just feels hollow since she left.