Not Again

I was married 13 years the first time. My x developed a drug problem. I became his mother thing got way out of hand. I thought I was helping him stay off drugs. I just pushed him away. He started the seeing a woman at the apartments were he was working. I could not forgive him. I got the divorce and he went back to the drugs. I stay single and raised my children. I took my daughted to collage that is when I started to date again. My husband and I have been together for 7 years. We only married only 18 months. My mother became very sick. She was in a hospital out of our home town. I was there with her off and on for 4 months once I got her in the hospital in our hometown. I noticed things were different at home. He would no come to bed. He would fall asleep watching t.v. I was working out at the gym and I could see his work out the window. I noticed he was spending alot of time with one of the girls he works with. I ask him why they would go outside behind the building. He got so mad at me started saying that I could not accept his daughter.He knew we had problems when we got married but things were no different between us. She did her thing and I did mine. Long story short I moved out and with in a month he moved his girlfriend in. My question I keep asking myself is why marry me tell me he wants to spend his life with me. then go out and develop a relationship with someone else at a time when I felt so very alone. I know our marriage is over I want to know how to forgive and start over.
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 15, 2013