My husband I have been separated for a month and a half. I even had to file a protection order against him. After I finally accepted that he was abusing me, I decided I wanted a divorce. The guilt and uncertainty remained for a bit. I have been seeing the lawyer for a few weeks. There was a slight delay due to the possibility of him having a serious medical condition. I made the decision this past weekend and knew I wanted to file and so I saw the lawyer on Wednesday. I wasn't sure how I would feel when it finally happened. There were so emotions that started to flow as my hand signed the paper....a little sad, a little hurt, a little guilty, a little fearful, but most of all I felt relief. Relief that I was strong enough to stand up for myself and my children. It may be a tough road ahead, but it has to be better than what we had.