I Never Thought.
I had been with him for 8 years. We were married for 4. When we talked about marriage, I truly believed in the "us" factor. And I truly knew the seriousness of a marriage. However, when we finally did get married, I was not prepared for what would happen between us. I was not prepared for us growing apart. I was not prepared for us changing as two people, and I was not prepared for us not becoming and growing as one.
I see a lot of marriages in my life, and I look at those couples and recognize they have a great relationship. They truly work together and help support each others' dreams and goals.
My marriage was never like that. We stopped working together, we stopped focusing on each other, and we literally were just roommates. We stopped sharing our lives together. Sure, we'd go out and do things together, but even in those situations, we never communicated. We did not have a GOOD HEALTHY relationship.
I'm just surprised it took me this long to realize what the hell was going on between us. I think it takes a strong person to recognize when a relationship has no more chance then a person that stays in a relationship because they're afraid of the future.
Well, I took that chance at happiness and asked for a divorce. Yes, I'm scared as hell because I have no idea where I'm going to end up, but the fact of the matter is this, I am happy he is no longer around. I have no regrets about my past. I don't look at him with bitterness. I look at the situation as a learning experience. Yes, I had to learn the hard way, but now, in my heart, I know what I truly want from a relationship.