We were together for 9 months and he was my first serious relationship. We just broke up a couple of days ago, and it was partly my own fault. We aren't speaking right now which I guess makes it easier on both of us in some ways. I do miss him quite a bit, but I also feel that this is for the best in my life right now. My emotional attachment to him had caused me to lose my way in other aspects of life, and getting caught up in a relationship is not my primary goal right now, especially if it is in an unhealthy way. My heart yearns for him because of how close we have become over the past year I have known him. Break-ups are harder than I ever imagined, but I am also noticing how strong humans can be. I have to pick up my life where I left off, and it's a tough situation, but perhaps this will make me a stronger or better person in the long run for having dealt with this.