It would have been 6 years in December. He ended it just 9 days ago. I'm in such a dark place right now. I didn't see it coming. I didn't know how to react. I cried and cried. I'm still crying now. I know everyone says that time heals everything but right now this is so hard. It feels so unfair. I tried to talk to him a few days ago and he said that he didn't even miss me but just missed the idea of having someone there. He told me we weren't going to get back together. I couldn't understand or believe it. We were fine 2 weeks ago. Just 2 weeks ago he was telling me how he loved me and that I was his best friend. I don't understand. It's driving me crazy. I keep checking my phone hoping for a call or text. I know it's stupid and that I shouldn't wait on him because he doesn't deserve it but I can't control these feelings. I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I'm so sad.