So, I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago. I kind of feel terrible, because I basically gave him no warning. It was not a horrible relationship or anything - certain things were missing and my gut feeling told me that he wasn't the right person. But, honestly, I miss him and am struggling to adapt to the change. We were really comfortable with each other.
He has been rather nasty about the break-up, emailing me mean things and walking out on our conversation. Since the break-up, I went back to smoking after a 5 week quit - sometimes I am practically chain-smoking. I know it's such a gross habit, but I find it so soothing.
I am just feeling lost and alone.