Somedays Are Just Too Hard
I became involved with a friend who is bipolar, and we became lovers in an intense relationship. It has been rocky from the get go due to an age difference....he is 10 yrs younger. It seems once I got my head straight, he has gotten worse as far as his mental illness. He became distant with no intimacy basically for 3 months. When we are good, we are fabulous, but its so emotionally trying. My head says it wont work but my heart says be loyal and stick it out. Now we have had a huge eruption and he has said that he does not want to do this anymore and be alone. We work together and all I do is cry. I am usually a strong and vibrant woman but this is destroying me. I have been begging and texting him to think this decision over.He can be very angry and nasty at times. He is a great person, and I love him. I feel so lost and alone. How do I move on? i am divorced and this is not my character to be weak. I know it wont last if we stay together but I do not know how to move on. I feel I am losing my self respect. Our ages are of a mature level and beyond 30"s, so I feel I should be smarter.