He Ditched a Girl For Me. But Then He Made a Promise to a Dying Girl.

the whole relationship was messed up from the start. when we met he was seeing this other girl, but we fell so inescapably in love, that we both compromised ourselves(he, by cheating on his girl, and I by going out with a guy who was already committed) and started dating... we knew we were never meant to be, but we were so in love that we couldn't escape it either.

before meeting him, i'd dated many guys, but every time i'd been merely infatuated, and had never fallen in love. ironically, when i DID, i fell in love with a guy i could never have. he was practically my first and BEST love.

after two months of dating, and a lot of pain(whenever i realized he wasn't mine to keep), one fine evening he dumped her.

for me.

that was the happiest day of my life... i know the girl was being done wrong to, but i couldn't help revelling in the fact that he was all mine...

he told me i was the only girl he loved...and that whatever he'd done to ditch her, and to be with me had been the best decision of his life.

the following two months were the happiest months of my life... two months of having him exclusively as my guy...two freaking months were enough to give me a lifetime's worth of the best memories ever.

the day before yesterday, we had the best date ever. his kisses and hugs had never felt better... and i kinda knew in my gut that something was coming...

that very night, his ex's elder sister had an accident and passed away. before dying she told him to take care of her sis...

even after that we met last night, and i had the best time of my life. he told me he'd be out of the whole issue, and he just needed time. if i could give him the time and the love i'd always given him, the love that had helped him to fight his parents (who had wanted him to go abroad to study), and stay back, and if i could wait a little, he'd be out of the trouble he was in...

i believed him. and last night we had a lovely time...

but then, online we talked about it and he realized he needed more time. he told me he was breaking up with me, and that he wouldn't be with either of us. it was the same cycle all over again. he told me he couldn't choose between the two of us so he'd have to wait for time to take one of us away...(after she completed high school, and i completed grads.)

i'm devastated. i now know perhaps i'd NEVER been the only girl. her ghost had always been there...

i've lost a battle...

all of you will probably be on the side of right, whatever that is, and say that his ex, poor unfortunate gilr that she is needs support. i believe that too... but couldn't he have stayed with me while giving her that support?

in a way, he's not keeping that promise he made to the dying girl. he is NOT going back to his ex. but he is keeping a nonexistent promise he never made... to break up with me...

talk to me please, someone.

anyone.

 

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18-21, F
Mar 5, 2009