Are These Feelings Normal?I left my husband in May after his drinking problem reached a whole new high. I moved to DC at the end of the month to help my brother with his children for the summer. Now I have the choice to stay here and work on myself-- or go back.
I don't know what to do. The easy thing to do would be to go back to my husband. I miss my own house that I spent so much time working on. I miss my very sheltered indoor german shepherd. Sometimes I miss my husband when I get lonely.
I'm scared. I'm scared to grow up. I'm scared to fail. I'm scared to be alone. I'm worried that if I go back, I will miss out on finding a good guy. I'm worried about my husband too and him being alone.
I don't want to go back because I know the relationship isn't a healthy one--but I feel so weak. Luckily we have no children. One thing that keeps me in DC is the promise of falling in love and starting a family with a man who would make an excellent father. My next fear though-- are there decent men who would be with a divorced girl?
Anyone else experience these feelings?