Going On 3rd Separation That Husband Has Left

Hi...I am new to all of this. My husband has has left for the third time in our marriage. We have been married for 6 years and the first two times of him leaving were of his own demons he was battling. We had a baby who was born with a heart problem and he couldn't handle it so he left, second time he was depressed at work and left us then, this last time was just about 2 months ago and is now saying he doesn't know if he is still in love with me.

I am doing all i know to better myself by going to church, counseling and keeping my head and my son's head above water. He is leaning more and more towards divorce because he is enjoying not being here for us in full time husband and father aspects.

Someday's are easier than others and i can manage other day's i am so confused, lost and feel very betrayed by the one person i gave my heart to and trusted the most. How do you divorce someone whom you love and this isn't the option you want for your marriage. I am struggling with trying to communicate with him, i feel like my love for him is diminishing because he never wants me to tell him i love him anymore. I know he has pushed me as far away as possible and i am just not sure what to do or say to him anymore. I feel like not only have i lost my husband, the father of our son but my best friend as well.
jen1021 jen1021
26-30, F
2 Responses Dec 13, 2012

Thank you for sharing your story. You have put your feelings into words I have been searching to say myself for the past month. Your story sounds so much like my own. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. God can make what seems to be impossible possible. Keep your faith and don't give up on your marriage. God honors the union between a husband and wife. Believe in him as he believes in you.

I just wanted to say Thank You for posting your story. It brought tears to my eyes because I am going through the same thing. I married my best friend. I love him terribly but he doesn't love me anymore. I don't want a divorce either and want to try and make it work with him. I don't think he wants too. Divorce is my last option. When I married him it was forever. I never saw my self with anybody else but him. We have 3 daughters together. We also have been married 6 years. The communication is not there. I try talking to him and have requested couples counseling and got a book about How to save a marriage on the brinks of divorce but he won't even look at it with me. In his heart I think he has already moved on. Please let me know how things are going with you. It's good to know there are other people going through the same thing. I feel so alone at times because I really don't want others knowing what me and my husband are going through.