Losing Th Strenth To LeaveMy husband and I have been struggling for quite sometime, I have left before for a few months only to end up back together, If you want all the details I have written it all before, check my profile.
Anyway, I know this relationship is unhealthy. It causes me stress and anxiety, it causes me to lose sleep, gives me a stomach ache, and keeps me in a financial hole. I told him I am leaving, told my family, friends and co- workers. I planned to use my tax check and get a new place. I have look for the past two week, at houses and apartments I have spread the word I am looking for a roommate, and i have canceled the ebills (lucky they are in his name). now i got my tax check paid some stuff off got a few nessesities and of course have very little left. I am out of the red and in the green, but no deposit on standby as i was hoping. and furthermore he lost his job AGAIN.
Just thinking about trying to find furniture and separating our stuff again, and losing the dog, it's all very overwhelming. I don't have a roommate yet, no place, no deposit, and now he is going to be totally screwed by my leaving. I know i need to quit worrying about him. however it's just not me to desert someone, even if he does so to me. He is sucking up big time, and i know it's temporary. I feel bad about myself to stay, but i am losing the strength to leave.