The Break Up Is Hurting So BadThis is only day one of my break up with my lover. We were together for almost 4 months, and I loved it. It was my first "full out affair" in bed he made me feel incredible - outside of the bedroom I felt like...just so admirred, so sexy. I am in my late 40's and just lost a little over 120 pounds - so of course I feel like a completely new woman
How do you carry on once it is over...how can I keep this 'pretend face' on, when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sob my heart out. Even now sitting here at work - I cant seem to be able to stop the flow of tears.... The thing is - even though he was absolutely incredible in bed (compared to my husband) towards the end he was on-line with other woman and made it very clear if he found someone else he would want to sleep with them too. He obviously had a drinking problem (a mickey per night) and he was ok to look at, but not drop dead gorgeous - oh god, I miss him so much!!! But you know the crazy thing is......after I get over this I will probably try to find another lover............. Can anyone relate??
VancouverMom 46-50, F 13 Responses 1 Mar 17, 2011