He's Like My Drug...I'm married under 5 years, in my 30's and here's my story.
So, I started working at a new job and about six months later, one of my colleagues (who's in a relationship of several years -.he's in his late 30's) began playing mind games with me where some days I wanted to kill him and other times I wanted to sleep with him. For some reason, I was his main target and I started to have fleeting thoughts of what he was really trying to get at....we would go for lunches, run work errands and then one day we decided to plan a dinner.... I said to myself, this dinner will be the defining point of what we really want from each other. Well, we had a blast eating, sharing stories, drinking copious amounts of wine...and then he made his move. Kissing him felt great like it validated how desirable I must be.
We continued flirting and scheduling dates...now, our dates are straight to the motel - sex is amazing and we usually go for hours!
The problem is that I'm starting to fear that he's becoming very addictive... I don't want this experience to become bigger than me or something I can't control. I still love my husband and would never want to hurt him so I have to make sure that this stays discreet. He has a girlfriend and I wouldn't want to compromise their relationship although I find it difficult not to feel envy, especially when he shares stories with me about her. I never imagined being in this situation but it just happened...