Sweet Child of Mine

So life has been really good as of late, it seems my life was at a crossroads not so long ago, and I chose the right path if you will.

I was reading through all my journal entries yesterday (yes, I was at work, and yes my job is boring...) and I was amazed to see how much my whole life had changed once Stacy really came into it. It was quite remarkable really. We are so lucky to have found one another, and I thank whatever powers that be that have brought us into this life together. I cannot believe that she is 14 weeks pregnant...in just 6 more weeks, she will be half way through her pregnancy! It is just crazy!

She is really starting to show. It is quite adorable really. I took her out on a date last Thursday and as we were sitting in the movie theatre, I looked over and she was sitting like a real pregnant girl, and her tummy was protruding ever so cutely. I put my hand on her tummy and my head on her chest and we just smiled. I don't know how to explain it, and probably those of you that have children know the feeling I am about to describe, but I don't think anyone has ever known true love before they think of their children. I mean to say, that that kind of love is so different than anything I have ever known before.

And while my love for Stacy is true and pure and amazing, the love a parent has for their child, even in utero, is unexplainable.

I am so excited about being a father. I daydream about it constantly. I stare at other parents and their children and think about how I would deal with a particular situation if I were in their shoes...I wonder if I will know what to do, and what to say. I know I will make many mistakes, but I hope that I will do a good job. I want my child to feel secure and loved always and know that I am listening and that I care and understand. It's a funny thing, the prospects of becoming a parent, your whole world view changes. Things that you never used to think about plague your mind. You are forced to look at yourself without any smoke and mirrors.

I have been really struggling with my career lately, and the choice I havce made with regards to it. I work a lot, I mean...A LOT. I don't get vacations really..I don't get days off for Holidays. I work on weekends sometimes.. I work all night at other times...it is really a horrible, horrible schedule. And it's not as if this job brings me so much satisfaction either. I am not driving a beemer, I am not living in the lab of luxury, and I am certainly not loving my job. I have been most fortunate to find Stacy to live in happiness. I have great expectations for the future.
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3 Responses Feb 27, 2006

Best regards!!Congratulation mr,two years ago my baby boy was born and i know your words are like an iceberg,just the beggining is starting to show there are no words to expres happines!you will know how to deal with you new perspeptic of live,dont you forget that a son is a Gods blessing,Big hug for all of your new "you",

Best regards!!Congratulation mr,two years ago my baby boy was born and i know your words are like an iceberg,just the beggining is starting to show there are no words to expres happines!you will know how to deal with you new perspeptic of live,dont you forget that a son is a Gods blessing,Big hug for all of your new "you",