Happy Thoughts

Yesterday, I went to see my therapist. And she was happy to see progress in my very unstable emotional state before she started seeing me. With that said, I was sort of proud of myself.

For the past week, I have been trying to figure out what actually makes me sad and what makes me happy. Being a visual person, I decided to write them down and thought it would be better to write one of each before writing down a second. So I started with my sad bubble, but took a lot more time than I expected filling in the happy bubble. I finally wrote down family.
Wrote down the second, and opposite it, I wrote pets. When I wrote EP third on the happy thoughts, I realized that I was stuck with three, and my sad thoughts went on and on. After trying so hard to think of what else could be written along with my happy thoughts, I just finally gave up.

I have been crying relentlessly before, then I started trying to find out what was wrong, and there would be days that it just made me feel worse, but there are days that I know I can sap myself out of this.

So getting back to after seeing my therapist and knowing that she too, has seen improvement in me, I decided, I really want to be happy, and I want to be happy now. There are a ton of things and feelings that could make us happy, we just have to discover it.

I will be happy now, I will be on an adventure trying to look for what would make me happy and actually enjoy every moment.
lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur
26-30, F
1 Response Jan 20, 2013

My therapist retired in 2011, and I wished him well. It took too many people just to contact the insurance companies.. Then my husband retired that year so that insurance went away. So I slowly weaned off my little bit of a happy pill and told myself to find things I enjoy doing. I'm a looming idiot with a hand held blue loom, and I make neck scarves. So what if I take turns with 3 scarves? My son said it was too hot where he is stationed so now I'm doing my favorite varigated color and it is a happy color. I also found a drawing that he did in black and white so I colored it, and framed it. I try to think about when he comes home. I sometimes worry if he is told they can't communicate, but then he's back and I'm fine again. Abraham Lincoln wrote little things to help him cope. He said ~ "A person will be just about as happy as he makes up his mind to be" Wow , maybe he was in therapy too.

Wow, a blue loom. I want a genuine loom for myself. I have started trying to learn how to weave the last 2 days. I'm still watching vids of how to do it. I'll try it once I buy my yarns and reeds. I love scarves, but its too hot for scarves from where I am, but we have those thin ones that are used by some people here. I'm into basket weaving, so I might work with reeds instead of yarn.

It's good that you find things to make you happy. I'm still on antidepressants, my therapists suggests that I take it for at least 6 mos so I'm counting. But I'm doing other stuff as well to keep happy thoughts coming.