Today I Am Failing At Being Positive

Ok I just made a list of 100 things that make me happy and they are things that truly do make me happy but today I am just miserable.

When I'm down I cant just be positive. I can pretend. But the nagging, gnawing knot is still in the pit of my stomach..

Today I'm finding it difficult to find what is causing me to feel and think so negatively. I want to find it so that I can look at it for what it is and then move on from it. Right now I feel as if I have set up a dwelling place in the unknowns camp.

To make matters worse I over ate today as a way of numbing out. Now I have guilt and loathing on top of this phantom black cloud that has been following me all day.

This is a stupid day and I can't wait for it to be over....

achieve achieve
31-35, F
2 Responses Feb 27, 2009

GET OVER YOUR STUPID DAY-- IT HAPPENS TO US ALL.<br />
SLIP UP ON A DIET OR A EXERSISE PROGRAM?? YOU DID GOOD -- YOU MADE A LIST OF 100 THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY... NOW-- PUT A 1,2,3 ETC. ON THE ONE'S YOU WAN'T FIRST, SECOND AND YOU KNOW......

if it only happened to you once , than ur not alone , cause alot of people go through this all the time ..<br />
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be sad a little bit , it's ok ..<br />
but then get back to reality , to the sunshine !<br />
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i hope u still a happier days ,(( well i should just say happy' , cause that day apparently doesn't count as a " happy " day , but then it's life .. ))<br />
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peace out . :)