Some Days

I know that I have to stay strong for him, but i have to stay strong for myself. But lately, its just been getting to me a little bit more than it should. We have been together for 3 years. I have known him forever. But this is his 3rd year where he spends from July to January on a deployment. I know he hates it. His misses his birthday, his sisters birthday (they are extremely close), Thanksgiving and the hardest Christmas. We have never spent longer than 3 months together at a time. I keep telling myself that I need to be strong for both of us..
Tell (my husband) and I know each other so well that its really creepy sometimes. From April 2010 to July 2010 have been the worst and greatest of my life. We got married and moved into our own house. But 3 deaths in the family and we had a misscarriage. At the time we didnt even know that we were pregnant. But after that we broke down. Even now neither of us can bring up even the subject of children. Our or others. I worry about him because I know that he is worring about me. I am trying so hard to keep it together. But being in a new place and going through all of this while he is away is hard..
The bright side to this deployment. He makes a point to call me every single day. Its nice that we can talk and not go days without talking. But when he calls me this afternoon I have to tell him news that can not be avoided. I found out yesterday evening that the man who was like an Uncle to him died. Bob was the whole reason my husband got into the Marines. He was there for him every step of the way. He died while hunting from a heart attack. How can i stay strong for him right now with the news i have to talk to him about can not be avoided? His family likes to censor the information from home. He hates it. So he looks to me for the trueth. It kills me with this kind of stuff.
So much is going on while he is away and wonder some days if i can keep being strong for him when all i want to do is crawl into bed and bawl...

Any Advice?

Sara Jane
Sleafordsgirl Sleafordsgirl
22-25
1 Response Oct 16, 2010

Hey Sara Jane, <br />
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I am sure you have told your husband the news already. The only thing you can do is tell him. He isn't going to want to hear it or like it, but if you are the one he depends on for the answers and the truth, than you can't keep it from him. <br />
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You will be able to keep strong. We all will. You have many support groups, your family, his family, the people on this site that are going through the same thing you are. <br />
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Life's roads are tough sometimes, we just have to get through the bumpy roads to make it to a smooth one. :) <br />
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Emily