A New Start

I've struggled with depression for some years now, and slowly it's getting better. I feel like getting over depression isn't a steady incline- it's up, then down a little, then up a little more, then down a bit where the overall result is that I've gotten better but everyday isn't better then the day before. 

I also realized that because I get so depressed some days, I don't want to get out of bed or do ANYTHING. Staying in bed makes it infinitly worse because it makes myself isolated and ALONE. But it takes my mind off of things and makes the painful days go by. 

Well, today is March 2, 2009 and I am here to say that I AM SICK of being this way. I am going to WORK HARD at accomplishing at LEAST 3 things each day that will help me to live life again. This also includes the fact that I will try to have a healthy relationship instead of ones with movies and computers.

I'll try to come back here everyday to update what I've done. If you understand what I'm going through and would like to be on this journey as well, please let me know. I just want to live life again.   

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1 Response Mar 2, 2009

Wow! it's sort of surreal but i feel like you are describing my experience! Although I believe I have been depressed for years, I have only just sought help. I sooo badly want to beat it too and although I find that horrible feeling of hopelessness and pointlessness debilitating at times, it gives me comfort to know that other people have similar feelings. <br />
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Some days i do have that fierce determination to push through the dark thoughts and other days I can't fight the urge to lie in bed and watch TV all day. I'm beginning to realise that a lot of my problems stem from my low self-worth and my inability to see anything positive in myself. These wounds are pretty deep and they are not going to be healed overnight. Contentment with myself seems a long way away.<br />
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I would love to be kept updated on your progress. I think you are extremely brave and strong to set goals for yourself in order to overcome the illness. I hope to follow in your footsteps. Please inspire me...it would certainly help to hear what other people are doing to tackle their issues head on.<br />
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Good luck with it all.