Sometimes It Feels Like The Best Option.

I don't feel comfortable at all talking about my feelings, so when I get down, I tend to avoid people because they always ask "Are you ok?" and then expect me to tell them all about it and all I want to do is run to my car and drive away and never come back. Then there's the times where I really screw up a relationship or friendship and think that it would be best for everyone if I just disappeared.

I'm actually thought a lot about "what if I was involved in some huge disaster?" Like a train wreck or plane crash or earthquake or tsunami or something. I could just leave all my stuff and walk away and everyone would think I was dead and then I could start my life all over. But I know that no matter how hard I tried to be different in a new life, I'd still be me and people are still people, so my new life wouldn't be much different, only I'd have no friends or family for support. So that's why I've never actually gone through with just disappearing. But I did move halfway across the country after high school to start over, and that has kinda worked out ok.

KaBe22 KaBe22
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 12, 2010

told you i can't retain much.. well, im wishing for your happiness :]