Or Am I Going to Do Something Stupid?

I say that I want to keep my life in order, that I am happy with how things are, and honestly, I believe that.  My life is better now than it has been in a very long time.  Since I am sooooooooo very good at self-defeating behavior, however, I am considering some activities that could ruin the life I say that I want.  I have had an online sex life to varying degrees for quite some time.  It waxes and wanes.....and seems to be waxing again, much to my surprise at this point.....shouldn't be a surprise I guess.  I anyone else struggling with this?