When Does It Ever End?

Does anything ever get better. Essentially have given up. Not a day goes by that I don't think about taking my life. My biggest fear is the pain and suffering will not end. In contrast I feel like I am already in hell. I really do try to make my life better, however, things never change. My biggest fear is that "things" won't change; the pain and suffering will continue. I do believe my family would be better off without me. I feel worthless, useless, and only a burden. Feel like nobody really cares. Usually get the same old rethoric.
shell6306 shell6306
46-50
1 Response Sep 5, 2012

i noticed your posting and want you to know I feel the same way. I just googled "Am I about to kill myself?". I ended up seeing your post.

I feel the pain of the world in my heart. I have tried to "just be happy" but it is not that easy. What people do not understand is that going through the day without crying in front of someone or smiling or doing the basic things I need to do is a task in and of itself.

I try to talk to my partner and am told nothing makes me happy but in reality I have had a tough life. I live with depression and anxiety and I am trying. I get no support and feel guilty for being sad.

I wish you love and hope.

Mario