Struggling to Overcome, Losing Everytime

I wish I could just calm and stop my lustful mind but I can't. Sex is just everywhere....it's all over the TV, magazines, in shop windows. And coupled with the fact I haven't had sex in like....over a year!!!!! It drives me crazy....I get aroused all the time by different things and my terrible mind doesn't help either. To further compound it....my choice to become celibate was because I had become disatisfied with sex, done some bad things in my relationships and had a lot of grief....and basically decided I wanted to save myself for the right woman. And also because I found answers to problems through God....and as a believer it is a sin to lust and to ********** (though this is debated if done not in the presence of lust - don't ask) I can see clearly the benefits of stopping it that God makes clear and also because it has become a bit of an addiction...and I don't want to be ensnared by some little habit. I want to be free! I am trying daily with some success...but when I give in I feel like such a loser and a failure (I think that image of being a loser has become prevalent in my life)

The5Cs The5Cs
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2 Responses Mar 4, 2009

Completely understandable..

Friend it seems like our views on these topics are very alike. I see you also know that it is debated on whether it is a sin on certain grounds. What ever the answer on that, I want to encourage you to at least get to the point that it does not have any CONTROL over your life. That is the important thing. I would focus on the fight with ****, it is much linked to this.