I am for some reason drawn twards gothic apperal, poetry, movies, books, behavior and make-up. I have always been a . . . depressed individual, and i am assuming that has alot to do with it, but even when i'm feeling my happiest, maybe out of habit, I am drawn to it. I love it and want to explore every aspect of it. it is a fantasy that i would die to live inside. I want to dress like a vampire hooker and bite the men who take an eye to my assets. I want to walk the streets of my town with my head down, eyeliner and buckels on, listening to Atreyu. I want to feel like I am somehow shoving it in everyone's faCE who rejected me as a child by hating everything. I want to lie in my ex-lovers blood and feast on his insides for how he made me feel. . . no just kidding, lol. (See how dark I am?) I want to wear fishnets, corsits, and fake eyelashes everyday. I WANT TO BE MY IDEA OF ARTISTIC FEELING AND BEAUTY. . . . . am I insane?