I Am Grieving the Loss of a Friendship
Until two months ago I was in a relationship with him. Before that, he was the one I considered to be my best friend. I guess it's stupid for a girl to have a guy for her best friend, but I can't really help it. The first time we met I fell for him. Hard. He fell for me, maybe even harder. When we didn't end up together(because of me, mainly) he stayed my friend.
A year and a half later, we got together anyway. I think it went wrong when I kept pushing him away when we first met. Anyway, it didn't work out. I don't really get it, and even though I know he has some serious issues I feel awful for not being able to resolve them, and I'm devastated. I miss him. I really do.
And now, he stopped talking to me. A shared friend told me he did that because he's afraid we will damage what is left of what was between us beyond repair if we are too close, because there is severe tension and misunderstanding between us. My head gets it, my heart jsut doesn't. It hurts. I just know that it hurts.
