My Girls’ Father Lost His MindI know that this is not technically a death, but it feels very similar. My girls’ father recently lost his mind to drugs, mainly bath salts and excessive drinking(he’s been in 6 different rehabs the past two years). When I saw him the other day, he could barely speak and did not make much sense. I was married to him for four years; I know when he’s on drugs/drunk, and believe me, he was sober the other day. His mind has been slipping away lately, and I doubt he’ll come back fully. He was highly intelligent when I met and married him; received honors in the Navy, got early promotions, etc. Now it is as if he is mentally retarded, all the time. My four year old daughter could tell he was not right in the head; she began to cry suddenly. He tried to comfort her but he could not speak right. This made her cry even harder.
I’ve been crying the past few nights over this. I do not love him in a romantic sense, I never really did. It’s heartbreaking to see my girls’ father and know that he is mentally gone. People have asked me, “Why don’t you tell him that you are worried, that his mind is truly gone?” Why the hell would I ever say that to someone. I think he is aware enough to know he is mentally off.