I Lost My Teen Daughter To A Prescription Drug Overdose

The death of my beautiful 18-year-old daughter Mikhaila on May 5, 2012 from a prescription drug overdose has changed me and my world forever. I continue to try to find meaning to what has happened and seem to always fall short of a meaning that is acceptable. I wasn't a part of her life until the last year, and I understand my part in her demise. I continue to struggle with this daily and I don't believe I will ever be the same again...
memocentella memocentella
41-45, M
5 Responses Aug 25, 2012

I just stumbled across this looking for a specific tattoo and I was taken by suprise to see Misha on Google. My name is Dawn Henry and I was at the hospital and also at her service. I am friends with Dayna and her family. I think of Misha often and cannot believe a year is arriving. My heart goes out to you. God bless

Sorry to hear of your loss, and that you had so little time with her. She is beautiful. I know your memories will always be bittersweet. I have four of my own and I know I can't even begin to imagine how you must feel. Hugs

thanks indie. everyday is a struggle. i have a blog, but i haven't been motivated to update it lately........thanks again

Sorry for your loss, i know how you feel. we should go before our children. my son died in march. 6 months already and i miss him more everyday. i am getting counselling and it helps a bit but I am learning we will never stop grieving, we just learn to live with the pain. I am also reading lots of books on grief and self help. take care of yourself

thank you for your kind words.

Hello: I wrote this for a friend, it is nothing but words but I hope it helps..........Doctor GS<br />
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LOSS<br />
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The pain surfaces again;<br />
I feel alone and abandoned.<br />
My tears fall uncontrollably;<br />
My memories sharp and clear<br />
a catalyst to the waves of pain I feel. <br />
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I feel consumed by my loss.<br />
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My thoughts echo in my mind;<br />
My heart races to nowhere.<br />
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I know the journey for her is a new beginning<br />
But what about me...................now?<br />
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I know light will come again to<br />
bathe me in warmth....but when?<br />
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Thank you

I am sorry to hear about your loss. and sometimes theres just no way of finding a meaning with so many questions. But she will always be in your heart. You shouldnt be so hard on yourself. She was blessed to have a father who obviously cared this much for her. i know you may have wanted her in your life longer but now whats important is the time you got to share with her. i wish you all the best in your grieving time.

Thank you smiley. You are right I am greatful for the time that I had with her. But I would trade my entire life for 5 more minutes to be able to hold her and tell her that I love her.