yesterday my ex who is the father of my two oldest sons was murdered. my boys are young, and honestly i thought there father was going to be around forever just as i feel im going to be here forever for them. everything is .... well at a loss of words. i cant believe it, we are trying our best to not fall apart. but thats easier said then done. im married , and yet despite he is my ex my heart still hurts. and i know my boys hearts are broken, and we are being as supportive of our boys will allow us to be. he was there father and they loved him to the fullest.as he had loved them to his fullest. services are saturday, so we will struggle to get through this.