Yes, It's True

I have done things I am ashamed of during my life. Not often, but often enough. The things I regret the most are those that have caused distress to others. I very rarely set out to deliberately hurt anyone, but through my actions (and sometimes my inaction) I have hurt people nonetheless. I don't think I could explain to my victims why I did it - I'm not even sure I know myself. All I hope is that I might be forgiven when the time comes, for I genuinely (for the most part) intended no harm.

For the bastards who really deserved it, I am unrepentant!
reteps reteps
51-55, M
2 Responses Jul 17, 2010

I am guilty of a lot of things myself, but find it very hard to talk about it. Worse, I have been carrying this guilt around for over 20 years. Because of what I did...I have hurt (emotionaly) other people, specially one close to me, my only son. Thou he never brings anything up or asks questions as to why I did what I did....I know deep down in my heart that I have screwed his life and my life forever.<br />
I'm not concerned of my life....but I am very concerned of my son and how what I did so long ago..has effected him today, now that he's a man. Too hard to talk about this even to myself, I cry a lot, I don't remember when it was the last time I had fun or laughed out of pure joy even. It's such a long, long story...I wish I could have someone to speak to ..without having to look at them in the face, I feel very guilty of the pain I have caused my son and everything that has happened to him since....I deserve what I'm going through today and know that there is no way to escape the situation I now live every day of my life. I'm sorry my son, so sorry.

I am guilty of a lot of things myself, but find it very hard to talk about it. Worse, I have been carrying this guilt around for over 20 years. Because of what I did...I have hurt (emotionaly) other people, specially one close to me, my only son. Thou he never brings anything up or asks questions as to why I did what I did....I know deep down in my heart that I have screwed his life and my life forever.<br />
I'm not concerned of my life....but I am very concerned of my son and how what I did so long ago..has effected him today, now that he's a man. Too hard to talk about this even to myself, I cry a lot, I don't remember when it was the last time I had fun or laughed out of pure joy even. It's such a long, long story...I wish I could have someone to speak to ..without having to look at them in the face, I feel very guilty of the pain I have caused my son and everything that has happened to him since....I deserve what I'm going through today and know that there is no way to escape the situation I now live every day of my life. I'm sorry my son, so sorry.