I Am Guilty For a Lot of Reasons
it was my first day at college ,i had always been at home,and had always obeyed my elders,but when i left to college,a hostel life,everything turned to be different and a difficult lot.i was too innocent and good so got a lot of friend,but deep inside i was so hollow ,i didnt have the parental guidance which i have always had,i just didnt know hownto live indepentantly.then i found a friend who understood my situatuion perfectly,we became quite close,quite close.then ,i really fell in love with her.i just dont know how to say,she was like a saviour for me,guiding me in everything.sometimes she adviced me to fight with my parents ,friends ,,which i foolishly did..i loved her blindly. too much she was the world to me and everything
all was fine ,until our results ,she was promoted and i was detained
she started to distance herself from me,and finally she said all that was between us was a joke and she separated from me
i begged her,requested and all sorts of things to bring her back to me ,but everything failed
she left me forever
i became like a mad women.i felt i was lost,my friends,my education evrything
but then i turned to my family and God ,and thank God i came out of the depression with great difficulty
am getting married
but this guilt still stays on in me forever
and whenevre i face any hurdles ,i just think that i commited this mistake tats why God is punishing me
this guilt lives on in me
even today
everything was 8 yrs ago
all was fine ,until our results ,she was promoted and i was detained
she started to distance herself from me,and finally she said all that was between us was a joke and she separated from me
i begged her,requested and all sorts of things to bring her back to me ,but everything failed
she left me forever
i became like a mad women.i felt i was lost,my friends,my education evrything
but then i turned to my family and God ,and thank God i came out of the depression with great difficulty
am getting married
but this guilt still stays on in me forever
and whenevre i face any hurdles ,i just think that i commited this mistake tats why God is punishing me
this guilt lives on in me
even today
everything was 8 yrs ago