Graduating Or Maybe NotI'm a 4th year graduating student(not really sure if I will be able to graduate now), my depression started when I was in 3rd year since I really really don't want to be a nursing student but my parents want me to. I started to absent and after a while when my groupmates started to call my house , I told my mom about me being absent. And of course she got mad and told me that she wasn't the only one who consented but me as well. It hurt that she told me that since during the start of 3rd year I already wanted to shift courses but she wouldn't listen. The day that I was supposed to return to school I drank a bottle of cough syrup to make me really sick (I know it's stupid). After that I've been having this dreams and daydreams where I kill myself and everytime I'm about to go to the hospital I have this crying spells.
Now that I'm about to graduate I still have to catch up on my duties and I know that I won't be able to finish them for graduation, and I haven't told my parents yet that I may not be marching this April and now the dean is calling my house. And I'm all alone in the house right now and I'm really really scared. And I feel guilty and depressed and in a panic and I don't know what I might do. Please someone tell me what to do.