This Is How I Got Infected
In 2006 I broke up with a man who was very afraid of contracting HIV , even thou we used condoms He made us go for HIV tests every 3 months. I left him because of his failure to committ to me and marry me. Then in 2007 I met this wonderfull guy (let's name him: Alex) with a heart of gold, my heart just melted at the sound of his voice. He loved me from top to bottom and if he he had told me he'd swim over the ocean for me I swear I would have believed.
Then the time for us to take our relationship to the "next level" came... He just got into the bed without a condom, so I asked him what he was doing. So he told me He's not just a fan of condoms... (I should have known that day he wasnt a man responsible enough to have me). I had just completed my degree in Accounting and Finance and this was my second year on a job I loved so much and this irresponsible man comes along? no ways. So I told him to condomise as long as I dont know his status. He did but later on I realised i was wet and that's when I knew He had secretly removed the condom.
It turned out I didnt know much about this man when a friend told me how she has heard he had many lovers. So i told him to go get an hiv test, we went together and the results were negative. NEGATIVE?? what a beautiful word that was for us because we quit using condoms and we enjoyed each other. But the leaopard never changes his spots! he cheated and cheated and cheated, and to this i forgave and forgave and forgave until one day I realised enough was enoung and I left him in septermber 2008.
In november that same year, maybe for loneliness reasons I met and dated dating a handsum young man (eventhough I knew i still loved Alex). My new beau made us go for the hiv test before hitting the road...luckly it was negative but we decided to have protected sex anyway. Meanwhile Mr Alex was pleading, crying, nagging...about how he was a changed man and had learned from his mistake and wanted to marry me. Because of his constant nagging and threats he made to my sweet young man, my young man asked me to choose...and to his suprise I chose Alex and that was in february 2009.
We didnt waste time and we were married in two months.. and 11 months later I was dignosed with HIV.. my cd4 count was 460 and the viral load 15000 copies... I used to blame myself always about why I took back Alex and marry Him without even getting tested... but then I said to myself: I cant change the past but I can change my future so I will continue to look after myself and love my husband like he deserves coz yesterday is gone and will never be reversed!