My First Time Saying I'm Positive

Hi everyone. Like many of you I am positive. I have always imagined myself in the future as a wonderful wife and mom, until 2 weeks ago when my results came back positive. I am a 25 yrs old woman and spent 4 years with a man I thought I'd love forever. Eventually I felt he was cheating (which he was) and I walked away. Unfortunately, he tried to kill me after because he didn't want me to go. Anyway, I now know I got this disease from him. I'm not angry at him and I've been handling the news fairly well, only problems are that I haven't told anyone (i love my family too much to burden them with this news and I'm reluctant to tell friends because of the stigma attached) and now I've given up on hopes of finding true love. Afterall, who'd willingly date or marry someone who is HIV positive??? I have accepted my situation and look forward to a long healthy life. I refuse to give in. My only tears are for the children I may never have or the man I may never be able to share a happy life with, all because I wanted so much to share my life with one man. 
Positivelyhopeful Positivelyhopeful
22-25, F
6 Responses May 20, 2012

I was been suffering hardship from HIV/AIDS since 9yrs now, and i happen to have 2 kids for my husband, and now we cannot proceed to have another kids all because of my disease and now i have do all what a human like i and my husband can do just to get my disease healed, i have went to several places to seek for help not even one person could ever help, until i melt a comment on the daily news paper that was commented by Miss Marilyn about how this powerful traditional doctor help her get cured of the disease (HIV-AIDS) " my fellow beloved" i firstly taught having a help from a spiritual traditional healer was a wrong idea, but i think of these, will i continue to stress on these disease all day when i have someone to help me save my life?" so i gather all my faiths and put in all interest to contact him through his Email address at ugbakhuanspelltemple@gmail.com , so after i have mailed him of helping get my disease cured, i respond to me fast as possible that i should not be afraid, that he is a truthful and powerful doctor which i firstly claimed him to be. So after all set has been done, he promise me that i will be healed but on a condition that i provide him some items and obeyed all his oracle said. I did all by accepting his oracle fact and only to see that the following week Dr Ugbakhuan mail me on my mail box that my work is successfully done with his powers, i was first shocked and later arise to be the happiest woman on earth after i have concluded my final test on the hospital by my doctor that i am now HIV- Negative. My papers for check are with me and now i am happy and glad for his miraculous help and power.
With these i must to everyone who might seek for any help, either for HIV cure or much more to contact him now at these following email now,
Email: ugbakhuanspelltemple@gmail.com
" sir thank you so much for your immediate cure of my disease, i must say for curing my disease, i owe you in return. Thanks and be blessed sir.
My name is jane wembli
His Email address is:
ugbakhuanspelltemple@gmail.com

Yes u can definitely fulfill your dream of becoming a lovely wife and a caring mother but with the only difference that choosing your life partner has become a more restricted to HIV+ man only.....don't feel low....it's more or less same for all the infected young people with similar dreams......same is true for me as well...In our country one such matrimonial site (managed by an NGO) has come up which is providing a helping hand in match making for HIV positives.....And going by my docs advise, I also, even though um positive, can get married and have healthy kids (HIV negative) but will have to wait for 2-3 years and should take the steps under the consultation of a doc......so don't lose hope, do all the right things n remain an optimist your dream will come true I bet.....

I understand how you must be feeling. Finding out that I was HIV+ has also made me wonder if I will ever have a wife and Kids. However I have been reading the experiences of many people on sites such as these and many have found love and started families after finding out that they were HIV+. These stories show that people do have families and wonderful relationships despite being HIV positive.<br />
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Hang in there. Do not lose the positive outlook.

@gancs01: Thank you for the comment. I haven't seen on a story on your wall but feel free to share it with me. I'm always a profile away if you wish to talk.<br />
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@delover2190: I truly appreciate your optimistic, encouraging words. I hope to find that true love as well.

Don't give up positvie...I have a friend who was married and got HIV from him and they always had unprotected sex...He passed away and she remarried and had a HEALTHY daughter. Someone loved her even with HIV, so never say never....

I read your story and i admire you for your forgiveness and your attitude about life. Please read my story.<br />
Regards