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All Polarities Are Perfect... I See This Truth Finally & Il Be Eternally Grateful For This Grace

it will sound like a paradox... they say everything 'real' in this universe will usually be a paradox... 

my mind will keep telling me "u need to achieve this or that.... u need to get somewhere... u need to have this thing or this person before you're happy...."
but the truth is... thats on the surface.... my mind chatters away to itself... like it always will..... 
things to be achieved, i will... life will go on and it must... conquests to be conquered il do anyway.... but i had lost sight of the journey itself.... was SO busy doing and thinking.. forgot to just watch and be.......

up until 3 yrs ago i was a slave to my mind.... anything it thought up could take me over... but by watching it... in realizing that both the madness and the sanity are equally important & equally insignificant.... my peace was right there for the taking and so many years i didnt take it... 

now inside.. deep within, i am at peace... and im always happy.... that which i cannot explain never changes... its that constant sense of peace that is the backdrop on which everything else happens in my life.... events come and go, people come and go but this that i cant put a label on, it stays ever calm and ever peaceful inside me... 

its not strength, its not determination, its not denial and its not force..  what its not is easy to describe.. to say what it is, is impossible

sitting in silences, tapping into that never ending source of silence and depth, going beyond the good and the bad for the first time in my life... beyond all the opposites... not limiting myself to just my senses and to my beliefs... iv realized im very happy.... even that word 'happy'.. i dunno... its more.. 'joy' ... that comes closer to what this is... 

the drama will go on and on and i honor it but deep inside its like iv already arrived.....

sorry if this sounds like too much of esoteric bull shite.... lolol... its how i feel... its what i truly know  : )





ps. no, im not on anything LololLOL!  
just happy to share!
thetenbladeplease thetenbladeplease 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2011

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I like what you say and I think I get what you are saying too. When I am not ill, I feel pretty contented with the infinite wonder of life as well. I think that where you are right now, will likely change again, so just be prepared for things to feel different again, but it'll always shift. That is my experience, at least.

thank you for your comment... yes, you're right.. everything will eventually shift.. guess its our attachments that make us feel we've 'lost' something...

: ) nice to 'meet' you