Don't Know Where To Start

I don't know what to write. I don't know why I feel the way I do or why I've felt this way for so many years. Writing used to come really easy to me because I always thought I had it all figured out why I felt this way. I could blame it on many things but truth is no matter what situation I am in, this feeling still haunts me.

Everyone thinks I am ok right now. When I go out in public I put on my best smile but I am dying on the inside. My family and friends don't know how I haven't left this bedroom in days. When they call or text & if I feel like answering or getting back to them later I make up some excuse. 

I believe everything happens for a reason so I'm hoping my stumbling on this website is my answer to getting better. 
gatorgirl013 gatorgirl013
41-45, F
4 Responses Mar 12, 2012

Mate, what heals ya are 2 Kinds of Girls,
The Girl that understands and nurtures your Heart,

And the one that IS your heart in the form of a Motorbike!
Feel the sound, growl, the wind and the scenery changing around you,
as you and your ''Heart'' breeze through valleys and towns.....

Did da Job for me, so i recommend this lifestyle,
the Average mans Version of a Rich man traveling the world ;)

That lifestyle is my life! We ride year round & it's therapy for the soul ;) Eases all my problems at least for awhile!

oh bless you, i really hope that you can sort things out for the best, try n talk it over with someone. It may help you to get better. just stay strong, you may find help from other on here

Almost a year later & lots has happened but I'm better ;) perfect no! But I'm ok! Thx!

Just try and hang in there. Use ep! Soo many nice people on here. Feel free to say whatever youd like. Nobody will judge you or think what you feel isnt "right".. Reaching out is the first step! So keep your chin up and keep writing what you are feeling! Its a great place to start:)

I know it's been a long time but im doing so much better! A lot has happened in my life since I posted my first post but thing is I'm ok :)

thank you! i'm gonna give it hell!