I Got Rid of the Bad Egg

I'm the happiest I have been in a long time. About 7 months ago I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years on and off. He was abusive verbally and physically and he brought me down so much. I used to weigh 198 pounds. I began to work at a grocery store and lost about 40 pounds from working there. It was an active job and thats where I met him. I should have known because even in the beginning of the relationship he ws a piece of crap but I was blind and dumb. Anyways it got to the point where I was afraid to eat in front of him, say certain things in front of him, afraid of him being mad about me, and afraid to say no. He didnt buy me nothing and treated me like pure dirt. He spit in my face and punched me in my arm. He was dirt. Its been 7 months and I feel like...I cant explain how I feel right now. I never want to go back. I feel clean. I feel like Im clean from a drug. Thats what he was. He was a drug. I thought I could change things. But I was wrong and I finally realized that. I am someone. I am special. I am not someone you can just walk all over and use. I deserve to be treated like a queen. I deserve to feel loved. I could go on and on but Ill say one thing. My ex did one good thing for me right now. After leaving him he made me see who I am. Made me know the person that I am. He made me believe in myself.

rminopoli rminopoli
22-25, F
1 Response Oct 27, 2008

Well I swear on everything when I was reading that it was like I wrote it, everything except for the being free part.