I guess i'm writing this because my birthday is coming up soon and i will be 25. I never thought i would be five years from 30. Most my age are far more advanced than i am. I am 25, still in college with no idea of what to do, no job experience really which means I really don't have a lot of social interactions. I have been screwing around for the last 7 years avoiding responsibility. I feel like i'm just sitting in bed wasting my life away, smoking pot and fulfilling myself with things to keep me satisfied for the moment. I have been single now for two years and I feel the pressure now to meet people, but the problem is I don't have any outlets to meet people. I don't really want to either, it's like work to me and I don't know how to act. I need to develop a life but it's so hard. When i do have things to do during the day I get depressed and bored with the routine and i end up hating everything. I don't know if i'll ever be happy. I don't want to get older because getting older means being someone I can't be.