With My Cousin

My sitiuation started about 15 years ago. My cousin and I have always been attracted to each other but was really just an unspoken thing. When I graduated college, I moved out of the state and she decided to come visit. One thing lead to another and we ended up making love all weekend long and would hook up now and then as I would come home to visit.  Realizing it would be taboo, I always told her that our relationship could be nothing more than physical, but I still wanted more. Our physical relationship stopped when she got married. Her courtship and marriage happened quite fast so I never really got to tell her how I really felt about her, and how strong these feelings were.  I later got married as well and have two kids. My cousin and I didnt really see much of each other much for a couple of years as we both have busy lives and several hundred miles between us. I ended up having to make a trip to the area by myself (no family) and thought it would be a good opportunity to grab lunch with her and catch up with whats going on in her life, etc... Catching up was an understatement. Turns out she always has loved me but thought I didn't want relationship so moved on. We both confessed our passion and love for each other and we ended up making love the rest of that day and all of the next. Part of me feels extremely guilty, but part of me feels so alive. I cant wait to make love to her again. What bothers me the most, is not only do I have no regrets, but that I look forward to being with her all of the time. I love my wife and kids, and I can not say that our marriage is lacking anything. I know what I am doing is wrong, but can't nor do I want to stop..  
dhaz dhaz
41-45, M
Dec 19, 2010