Ugh, So Torn....My husband and I have been married for 3 years & were married very young. He is a great husband he has his flaws like playing video games way too much and not a big fan of sex, but non the less he doesnt cheat & he doesnt treat me like crap. BUT I've always had the problem where I only feel pretty or whole if I'm getting male attention. I'm not sure if it stems from my childhood sexual abuse or what, but basically I feel ugly and the only thing that makes me feel pretty is for a man make me feel that way. Since my husband and I have been married we've had a few issues with my little problem the main issue being I've had alot of problems with flirting online and sending pix back and forth etc. But now I've graduated into having a full blown affair. Its been going on about a month now and the new guy is married as well. So as you can imagine us hanging out is causing problems but its like an addiction right now when were together everything just feels so perfect. Both of us love our spouses but we love each other as well. I'm just so torn and just really needed to get all that off my chest.
xxilbbxx 22-25, F 1 Response 0 Oct 9, 2011