Ugh, So Torn....

My husband and I have been married for 3 years & were married very young. He is a great husband he has his flaws like playing video games way too much and not a big fan of sex, but non the less he doesnt cheat & he doesnt treat me like crap. BUT I've always had the problem where I only feel pretty or whole if I'm getting male attention. I'm not sure if it stems from my childhood sexual abuse or what, but basically I feel ugly and the only thing that makes me feel pretty is for a man make me feel that way. Since my husband and I have been married we've had a few issues with my little problem the main issue being I've had alot of problems with flirting online and sending pix back and forth etc. But now I've graduated into having a full blown affair. Its been going on about a month now and the new guy is married as well. So as you can imagine us hanging out is causing problems but its like an addiction right now when were together everything just feels so perfect. Both of us love our spouses but we love each other as well. I'm just so torn and just really needed to get all that off my chest.
xxilbbxx xxilbbxx
22-25, F
1 Response Oct 9, 2011

It's always good to be able to get your thoughts out there and realize you're not the only one. It sounds to me though that your husband is just not getting that you need more attention. That could be for a variety of reasons, but most likely he just doesn't realize it.<br />
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Coming from a mans point of view - we are very dense and don't understand how women think. We don't always see the signs and signals you send out and it literally takes a smack upside the head to get our attention but that is part of our charm too... <br />
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You're currently feeling the "honeymoon syndrome" the time when your new man fits all the holes in you and fulfills your needs. - I'll be your H did this too at one time or you probably wouldn't have married him. <br />
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Just beware that the longer the affair goes on the more it's gonna hurt when things chance.... Good luck