I met my mate several months ago. An on line meeting, lots of talking, emails.
When he wanted to meet in person - I was so scared. On line fantasies are one thing - real life fantasies are another. Would this be as good in person as on line? What if I could never go back to being just this 'mystery' on line person? I could talk openly to this person about anything. What would happen?
We decided we would meet. I was terrified. We met at a local, open place for a drink. I was so nervous walking in and meeting him. When I saw him, I felt overwhelmed. Her sits the man that I have fantasized about for so long.
He put me at ease, letting me know that he was nervous too. We talked, and walked for many hours. We held each other, and kissed - and the first time I kissed his lips - I was taken away. His lips were so soft, so tender, so loving. I had not been kissed like that in over 9 years.....
Throughout the next several months, we met several times, talking, laughing, and having a great time. Each time we met, I fell more and more for him. This is the hardest part - separating reality from fantasy. I love the way he holds me, caresses me. Understands that I have needs and will do anything for me. He lets me explore many things I have never felt. I never realized how great loving a man could be - he made me feel things that I had long thought were impossible.
He completes part of the emotional intimacy that I long for. He has helped me so much to believe in so many things, and to work through so incredibly rough spots in life.
I enjoy every moment that I have with him - and enjoy him to the fullest. He makes my heart smile, and my soul feel so happy.
I know a lot of people will never understand this - but I do. My friend has kept me grounded, and has really allowed me to see what life is all about. I was ready to check out before I met him - just to throw everything away.
And I want to tell him thank you - you have helped me in more ways than you will ever know. You do have a place in my heart, and I will always have that place reserved - just for you.
I believe that every thing and everyone come into your life for a reason. I know the reason that you have come into my life was so I would hold on, find renewed strength, and know that I am not finished here yet. There are so many other things that I need to do - and through this, I have gained an incredibly invaluable friend, who doesn't always tell me what I want to hear. He tells me what I NEED to hear.
For 2 years I have had an absolutely horrid marriage. I would have left my husband long ago.
Where ever you are, always know that I do care for you - more than I will ever say. You really helped me through such a painful time. Thank you. I can't wait to see you again.